An update is long overdue…
We have moved on to the second cast after six weeks in the first one. Time both flies by and drags on. It’s interesting how time works that way. It feels like Brody has been in a cast forever, we are so used to it. I hardly remember what his legs look like. For the most part we have adjusted to it quite well. He has adjusted to it remarkably. He is an amazing little guy, he loves to laugh and smile and play, just like before the cast. He is learning to get around in the cast, he scoots everywhere! I know after the removal he will be crawling and walking in no time! He even turned himself over the other day, it was very exciting. He has only done it once, but it’s amazing that he is able to move around so well in such a bulky heavy cast. He gives me strength, knowing he isn’t phased by this small setback makes my heart smile. I still miss cuddling him without a cast, playing with his legs, watching him grab his feet and dressing him in pants. I get sad sometimes, but I know it will be over soon and he will have healthy hips.
The application of the second cast went so smoothly, it was amazing. The entire process took so little time, we were in and out of the hospital and back home in no time. He woke up from surgery and started playing within five minutes. He was the smiling happy boy so quickly you would never have known he just had surgery. This cast is a bit smaller and a little more light weight than the first. But other than that not much has changed. The next surgery should be even easier and quicker. The doctor says his hips look awesome, and his skin looks awesome under the cast. In fact, he said Brody’s skin is the best he’s ever seen under a baby’s cast after six weeks! This meant a lot to Casey and I, we have worked so hard to keep Brody dry and clean, it’s difficult but worth it. It just validates us, we are doing a good job and it will pay off. The next surgery will be shorter because the doctor won’t do another arthogram (injecting dye into his hips) he says it won’t be necessary. Also, the next cast will be completely waterproof and only come to his knees. I’m ready for bath time and him kicking those legs! That surgery is scheduled for March 1st, and we are counting down the days. After that, it’s only four more weeks in a cast. I know Casey is concerned for the six months Brody will be wearing a brace at night, but I think it will be so much easier than the cast.
I get teary eyed thinking about this whole process. I wonder if my wishing away four months of my sons life is okay. I feel terrible for just wanting this time to fly by, I feel like I am missing important time with my baby because I want it to be over. I still hug him, cuddle him, play with him, read with him, etc etc…but I am constantly wishing for tomorrow so we can be one day closer to no more cast. I assume that is normal in my position, but it still feels like I’m losing precious time that Brody is growing and changing. That being said, I’m ready for this to be over! It has become routine, it has become normal, but it doesn’t get easier emotionally.
He will be eight months old in a few days, wow! Crazy how fast time goes by. I am finally becoming more open to leaving him with a babysitter for a few hours, Casey and I have had a couple wonderful nights out. That helps me feel more like “me” again, instead of “mom me.” Plus, we have amazing family that love him so much, it’s good to know he is in good hands with people who are capable and love him (almost) as much as we do! 🙂
We are also trying not to think about the huge expense this is becoming. Despite having insurance, we are looking at medical bills over 15,000 dollars. It’s crazy, but we have no other choice. We will find a way to pay the bills, even if it is small payments over the next ten years (ha! and aah!). It’s hard not to stress about the money part, even if it’s not the most important aspect. But knowing that Brody will be happy and healthy, I would pay anything for that.
Having a baby changes every aspect of your life, people tell you that, but it’s hard to understand until you are living it. I never could have imagined the amount of love I have for Brody and I can’t begin to describe the overwhelming desire to give him the world. But when I think of the last few months, I know the decisions Casey and I have had to make are just the first of many hard ones we will be making for the rest of our lives in order to give Brody everything…and seeing his little face light up with the biggest smile you have ever seen makes it all worth it (and a little easier).